Two-faced

I am so sick of half the population. Now I know why I have more guy friends than anything they don't seem to be as much of backstabbin two faced bitches. I love how female friends just call because they are having problems in their life but yet when you need a friend to talk to they are no where around. I am supposed to feel so sorry for people who just keep fucking up their own lives on their own instead of taking a step back. This friend has been with this guy for 2 years now and having another pregnancy scare oh and she just got fired from her job oh yea and he's never had a job. Ok so my life isn't perfect and I make mistakes and try to learn from them. I asked her if she was using protection and she said no GO FIGURE!!!!!! she's not even 21 yet and he hasn't had a job ever (that I know of) She moved out of her parents house and got an apartment with this guy and stopped talking to me till today and i'm thinking hmm don't you know where babies come from and why would you want to be with someone who could care less about getting a job. Ok i understand this economy SUCKS ASS!!!!!! but seriously you could at least try to find a job. I've been looking for awhile just haven't found anything that i'm qualified for go figure but at least i'm trying and i've had jobs in the past it's not my fault that zachary's goes on lay off every freakin year. I told her she needs to make him use protection since neither of them are working and can't afford a baby and she throws it in my face about my miscarriage a lil over a year ago but here's the kicker I do use protection things happen sometimes thats just the way it worked and if it would have been a full term pregnancy Him and I would have been able to take care of the child since he has a job and has had one for awhile from my understanding he did change to a new job but thats totally different. I dont know maybe i'm just tired of being the person that everyone bitches to but when something is going on in my life the only one I can talk to is the computer cuz no one else wants to hear. Sorry but I've got my own problems. I mean come on your engaged to this guy who isn't helping to pay bills or even pay for a wedding that's a big red flag. Money isn't everything I know this but I wouldn't want to be in a relationship where I had to pay for everything all the time you know if the person was laid off and having a hard time getting a job due to the economy thats one thing but because they are lazy fuck that shit! This dude doesn't even have his GED or a diploma at least I have my diploma. I don't think i've ever been with someone who didn't have at least their GED except while I was in school and that's totally different. Ok now that i've bitched I think i'll go workout for an hour then head to bed since my shows wont be back on till next Tuesday

It's been awhile

Ok nothing major going on in my world here lately. Have had 2 dates with a nice guy but nothing serious at all not really looking for anything at the moment too much other stuff to deal with. Had a case conference at school this past monday for kris loads of fun let me tell you. Have the final one for the school year in April which will know more about how they are going to handle next year for him. I guess they've been taking him over to the green meadows side (3rd thru 5th grade) to get him prepared. They are going to try to get him use to the resource room teacher over there and the principle that way maybe when school starts back up in the fall he doesn't have such a hard time since it will be new people for him. But it's all a waiting game. Counting down the days till our small vacation to MN to see mall of america can't wait. Kris is all excited about going to the lego store i'm just excited about going somewhere i've never been but always wanted to go its part of my bday present from me to me lol since I can't do anything for my bday have no friends to go out with plus my son has therapy that day so looks like no family dinner either stupid therapist lol sometimes i hate going cuz he seems to think im doing something wrong but he has been super good at home its at school that he's had the problem and its normally when his schedual gets changed and he shuts down for the day. He seems to have to be on a certain schedual or he freaks out. Breakfast lunch and Dinner has to be at a certain time and at school they have a picture thing hanging up so he knows at what time he does what like writting and reading and PT and OT and all the other stuff and when things have to change for some reason or another then he has a hard time dealing with it. Sometimes i think he has a small case of OCD but i doubt it lol. Oh well. I think I have till April or maybe May before he sees the doc for the meds which have not been changed in about a year so that's a plus to finally be getting progress on that end I think. Maybe things are finally getting better but I wont hold my breathe cuz about time I think things are great they go WRONG. well it's late and i should be asleep but stupid Mt. Dew kept me awake first one in over 3 months!!!