Two-faced

I am so sick of half the population. Now I know why I have more guy friends than anything they don't seem to be as much of backstabbin two faced bitches. I love how female friends just call because they are having problems in their life but yet when you need a friend to talk to they are no where around. I am supposed to feel so sorry for people who just keep fucking up their own lives on their own instead of taking a step back. This friend has been with this guy for 2 years now and having another pregnancy scare oh and she just got fired from her job oh yea and he's never had a job. Ok so my life isn't perfect and I make mistakes and try to learn from them. I asked her if she was using protection and she said no GO FIGURE!!!!!! she's not even 21 yet and he hasn't had a job ever (that I know of) She moved out of her parents house and got an apartment with this guy and stopped talking to me till today and i'm thinking hmm don't you know where babies come from and why would you want to be with someone who could care less about getting a job. Ok i understand this economy SUCKS ASS!!!!!! but seriously you could at least try to find a job. I've been looking for awhile just haven't found anything that i'm qualified for go figure but at least i'm trying and i've had jobs in the past it's not my fault that zachary's goes on lay off every freakin year. I told her she needs to make him use protection since neither of them are working and can't afford a baby and she throws it in my face about my miscarriage a lil over a year ago but here's the kicker I do use protection things happen sometimes thats just the way it worked and if it would have been a full term pregnancy Him and I would have been able to take care of the child since he has a job and has had one for awhile from my understanding he did change to a new job but thats totally different. I dont know maybe i'm just tired of being the person that everyone bitches to but when something is going on in my life the only one I can talk to is the computer cuz no one else wants to hear. Sorry but I've got my own problems. I mean come on your engaged to this guy who isn't helping to pay bills or even pay for a wedding that's a big red flag. Money isn't everything I know this but I wouldn't want to be in a relationship where I had to pay for everything all the time you know if the person was laid off and having a hard time getting a job due to the economy thats one thing but because they are lazy fuck that shit! This dude doesn't even have his GED or a diploma at least I have my diploma. I don't think i've ever been with someone who didn't have at least their GED except while I was in school and that's totally different. Ok now that i've bitched I think i'll go workout for an hour then head to bed since my shows wont be back on till next Tuesday

It's been awhile

Ok nothing major going on in my world here lately. Have had 2 dates with a nice guy but nothing serious at all not really looking for anything at the moment too much other stuff to deal with. Had a case conference at school this past monday for kris loads of fun let me tell you. Have the final one for the school year in April which will know more about how they are going to handle next year for him. I guess they've been taking him over to the green meadows side (3rd thru 5th grade) to get him prepared. They are going to try to get him use to the resource room teacher over there and the principle that way maybe when school starts back up in the fall he doesn't have such a hard time since it will be new people for him. But it's all a waiting game. Counting down the days till our small vacation to MN to see mall of america can't wait. Kris is all excited about going to the lego store i'm just excited about going somewhere i've never been but always wanted to go its part of my bday present from me to me lol since I can't do anything for my bday have no friends to go out with plus my son has therapy that day so looks like no family dinner either stupid therapist lol sometimes i hate going cuz he seems to think im doing something wrong but he has been super good at home its at school that he's had the problem and its normally when his schedual gets changed and he shuts down for the day. He seems to have to be on a certain schedual or he freaks out. Breakfast lunch and Dinner has to be at a certain time and at school they have a picture thing hanging up so he knows at what time he does what like writting and reading and PT and OT and all the other stuff and when things have to change for some reason or another then he has a hard time dealing with it. Sometimes i think he has a small case of OCD but i doubt it lol. Oh well. I think I have till April or maybe May before he sees the doc for the meds which have not been changed in about a year so that's a plus to finally be getting progress on that end I think. Maybe things are finally getting better but I wont hold my breathe cuz about time I think things are great they go WRONG. well it's late and i should be asleep but stupid Mt. Dew kept me awake first one in over 3 months!!!

First of the year

Oh boy another year. Three more years and I'll hit that good old 30 age YUCK! So another year of being alone at new years really hoping this year is better. Kris was asleep way before midnight like about 7:30ish I however was sort of up at midnight trying to fall asleep but it wasn't working very well was too busy watching Burn Notice. I didn't really set any resolutions this year. I did set some goals some that could easily happen. Lose about 20lbs this year and find a job that isn't just a temp job. This being laid off shit sucks!!!!!! Well I'm off to get some other things done like my workout now that the kid is done with the wii for now.

Just bummed

Así que sé que ha sido un rato desde que yo he anunciado un blog pero he habido mucho pasando y realmente no tiene indicio donde comenzar. Im perdiendo lentamente el peso que no es bueno pero tan rápidamente como querría. En julio yo fui al lado de mi padre reunión familiar que usted habla de sentirse impar. Sentía realmente como yo no perteneció como todo fui fue niño del amor de mi padre tan probablemente acostumbrado hace eso otra vez. En las últimas semanas yo he tenido varios hit de machos en mí y bonito mucho pide sexo. ¡Lo siento que yo no soy una MUJERZUELA! !!!!! Yo tan soy cansado de chavos está justo como pero usted no estuvo con él por qué mí. Quizá porque yo me puse quiero a o quizá porque el corazón pertenece al someoen aunque yo no sea supuesto a. ¡Uno de ellos sucede ser un chavo que he sabido para lo que se siente como jamás y él conoce a muchos los chavos que feché y siempre he sido esta manera hacia mí pero puedo parecer conseguir la insinuación NOOOOOOOO que soy hola si todo deseé fue sexo que podría tener ningún pinche tiempo yo deseé pero eso no es lo que Iwant! !!!!!! Yo realmente deseo realmente una oportunidad con el hombre que posee el corazón. es eso realmente preguntar demasiado. Adivino que soy justo fustrated con mucho material. Por lo menos yo todavía trabajo y Kris vuelve a la escuela pronto. Bien iré tan puedo conseguir algún sueño para el trabajo.

Been awhile

So today is the 2nd day of Aug. We have busy weeks coming up mainly just the first part of it. Tomorrow we have our boy scout meeting then the following Monday we go in for school registration they do not have the lists posted yet of what the kids will need go figure it's frankfort's schools. Kris will go back to school on the 19th and of course I will not be there on his first day because I can't afford to miss any days I am trying hard to get hired on full time this year but who knows. Not a lot going on other than that and always working and enjoying my weekends as much as I can. This past week we went and saw G-force 3-D it was pretty good we went one day right after work instead of waiting for the weekend so there weren't many people there helped Kris out ALOT! He doesn't go back to see his therapist till later in the month and won't see the Dr. till Oct. for his meds so that must mean they think he is doing better. From a year ago MUCH better from 2 years ago MUCH MUCH better it's just taking time. When he's tired or there's too much going on or a large crowd seems to be when he acts up the most so we are learning how to try to avoid most of those kinds of situations can't avoid them all the time but learning how to help him cope with it. I did get a new phone this weekend with a full keyboard still same number and still a virgin mobile but i like the phone although i think you have to be really smart to figure out some of the stuff on it. We got to looking at it and it works with T-coil which would be great for my mom because of the hearing aids we've never had a phone that will work with her hearing aids so she's thinking about going ahead and getting a second one plus she could learn to text on this one better than the other one since she now knows how to im. I'm working on trying to get her up to speed with all this newage stuff LOL. Well I need to get going so I can get a few things done before bed. Busy busy busy day tomorrow.

First week done!!!

So yea today is Friday so happy it is. I am sore in places I forgot could get sore lol. My first week of being back at work is finally done. Next friday will be better its called PAYDAY!!! Kris is very excited about that cuz I told him we could go to Monkey Joe's that night so he could play after I stop and pay a couple of bills. Not much going on right now. Wed. was his last day of school he will be going to a couple of special classes this summer nothing too long. I think he has one in June that will last 3 or 4days like 2 hrs each day the he has 2 in July that are for 2 weeks a total of 4 hours a day (2hrs each) He's looking forward to that. His teachers sent home papers for him to work on during summer plus mamaw is going to make him practice writing everyday (m-f) and he has to read at least one book a day to help him imporve. Since they changed his meds back and he got his glasses his reading is starting to improve. He's still a little behind but that is understandable. His writing however SUCK. I swear my son could be a doc. the way he writes. You can not read it at all lol. He hates writing he says it makes his hand hurt. Well hell I hate packing mints it makes my back, arms and hands hurt not count feet from standing on concrete for 9 hrs a day around no one that speaks english but yet i've been up every morning at 4 am for work. This morning I had to push myself but I think thats cuz I knew it was Friday.
He did start the whole boy scout thing this week. During summer they only have meetings every other week so thats nice. At least they are in the evening hours and it will give him a chance to be around other boys his age. He has 1 missing tooth right now and the one next to it is ready to come out plus one of the top front teeth is a little lose soon he's going to look a little silly if he looses all 4 of the very front teeth without the big ones comeing in lol. Well I think that's all i got for today. I need to head off to bn.com to see if they have any new Murder She Wrote books in so i can try to get one for mom since her bday is next month. Maybe I'll have more another week.

Being female sucks

Ok yes I hate PMS more than anything in the world. At this moment in time i think childbirth natural without drugs sounds like more fun than bleeding for what feels like forever. I am supposed to be hanging out the a couple of friends this weekend since im the DD what a wonderful job let me tell u NOT. I'd rather be the one drinking and let one of the boys stay sober but no whatever Im just a good friend since one of them is only home on leave for a week before heading off to go overseas the only reason we are really going out this weekend anyways. Which means I get to stay the night with the man of my dreams even though we are not together but like i really care. He's mine no other little bitch is gonna touch him cuz i'll beat her little face in and well he's already said no one better mess with me but yet he dont want a commitment so whatever. I really cant say we are together but yet we aint seein anyone else its kind of complicated but i wouldnt trade it for the world. I go back to work finally on Monday at 6:30am can't freakin wait the bad part is my son has his first Tiger cub scout metting that night at 6:30 so not only do i have to work and bust my ass for 9 hours then i get to turn around and climb 3 flights of stairs to be in the same room with a bunch of little brats lol oh well it will be good for him. They have a camping trip in July so mommy gets to buy a tent and learn how to set it up there better be some damn pictures to go with this tent otherwise it might not get put up lol. Now I get why people say i need to settle down and get married so the guy can go and do this stuff with Kris. Oh well if i can fix the vaccum cleaner on my own without the instructions surly i can read the instructions and figure out how to put the damn tent together we'll see that should be very interesting let me tell you. Hopefully when im trying mom wont be anywhere near with the cam cuz that would be wrong lol. Today really seems like my day to bitch. I love this guy more than i thought i could ever love any guy and things are good the way they are cuz we are both trying to make our lives good that way if we decide in the near future to settle down then we'll be ok and not having to struggle as hard as we are now and with Kris having adhd he's afraid to get too involved with me incase it doesnt work out he doesnt want to slow down the progress that Kris has done so far which is good that he is thinkin that way but i do wish i could see him more. My friend has started seeing someone recently now shes blowing me off for him and then the one night we are supposed to hang out just the two of us she calls to tell me im bring jeffy with me wtf of course im pmsing and trying to be calm so i said whatever but thats bull shit i dont want to see two people makeout all night when i already feel like crap when i cant even talk or see mine till this weekend because he's spending this week with Gabe (which i support 110%) because we dont know if Gabe will come back or not cuz he's on the front line so im a little worried about that cuz he's an amazing guy and a great friend and I know how close him and Tim are and if something were to happen i really dont know how tim would handle it. When Tim's brother went overseas back in Nov. he pushed me away cuz he was afraid of everything but Gabe has tried to help him see that pushing me away isn't going to help anything that im an amazing girl and he should see what he has in front of him before its too late and a bunch of other stuff im not sure if i believe it or not sometimes but oh well. I do hope Tim gets his head out of his ass soon that way he can see that im not here to hurt him that i support him in every way. Ok now that i've bitched for a little while im going to go lay down for a little bit my back hurts and I hate cramps. MEN SHOULD HAVE PERIODS NOT WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!