Friday

I really didn't know what to put as the title today. It's been a pretty good day. I sold 2 4oz jars of bath salts for $8.00 but got a tip so after subtracting the cost of materials i made $8.10. Needless to say I was very happy. First time something has sold if I could sell at least that much everyday I would be so thrilled. Kris had a good day at school which was good. He's up on level 3 where they want him to be. He has 3 weeks left of school he's excited. This summer looks like it is going to be a pretty busy one. I know of 3 craft fairs that me and a friend are planning on setting up together at and sharing a booth. She makes jewlry and i do the bath products. There's one here in town in July it's the 4th of July Festival we were going to do the hot dog festival but we thought it was way to expensive to set up at its $50 for the booth space and it had to be turned in before June so IDK if I could come up with money by selling some products I might go ahead and set up but I doubt it. Then in Aug there's the Old Hickory Days in Colfax and then End of Summer in Rossville that we are going to try to set up. Old Hickory Days is only $20 I still need to call about the other 2 this next week but today I got so busy doing other things and had a customer stop by to pick up his order for his wife for mother's day. It was someone I knew so I was cool with them showing up to pick it up instead of shipping it out or meeting somewhere else. His wife thinks something is going on cuz she saw a txt msg with just an address on it when she finally see's what he has been up to she'll be thrilled and I'm sure she'll email me and be ok with it all. She knows I've known him since high school and he's always been just a friend not my type. Today I did decide that I would rather be single and loney than be with someone that makes me feel loney. Come Sept. it would be 5 years of being on and off with this guy and yes I love him but he doesn't feel the same. I see him on weekends only even though we live in the same city. I just can't deal with it anymore and I shouldnt have to. I should be able to find someone who loves me for me and doesn't want just sex. Oh well I guess I will just grow old alone and enjoy it at least I can do what I want and see who I want and hang out with the girls and no one get pissy. Well Kris is going to help me make up some bath salts in morning so we can start getting things made up and see if they will sell soon.

hmmmm

Ok so after not speaking to a good friend in about 2 years they email me on myspace blew my mind. Don't get me wrong i've missed talking to this person. They gave me their number so we've been txting off and on for 2 days however I feel so bad because he is married. I mean none of the txt messages have been in any form of cheating just two friends catching up nothing sexual or anything like that but I do feel bad just because I know so many women seem to jump to the conclusion their man is cheating on them if a girl from their past txts them. Hell I grew up down at his house when we were kids he's like a brother to me his younger sister was one of my best friends for so many years until she moved to KY then we lost touch but she emailed me too so that made me happy. Right now I am single but not really single I don't know its kinda of complicated. We've been on and off again for going on 5 years he says its just sex but yet sometimes i wonder cuz all of his friends call me his woman and he doesn't argue but at the same time the guy that emailed me out of the blue is one that i would have loved to have been with and not sexually speaking but I guess that will never happen lol oh well i dont know i guess i just want someone to tell me its not completely wrong to talk to someone who is just a friend even though he's not married and they are going through a rough patch. Fuck it i dont know what to think. Well I'm off to curl up with my teddy and cry just because im confused and dont know who i can talk to cuz everyone wants to judge me lately and im so tired of it and so hurt at the same time.

Home again

Ok so vacation was good short but good. I think we have everything unpacked but who knows. Right now Kris is playing with his new legos he got trying to build one of the star wars ships not sure the name didn't really look much at the box. I still have one small bag to unpack it has shampoo,conditioner body wash and makeup and a few other things nothing major if it don't get done today its not that big of a deal since its just the small bottles and we have the big bottles in the bathroom. I think I am getting sick now however I woke up with my throat so sore I just want to cry. Oh well. I got to get ready to get dressed for the day need to go to the store to get food or no one will be eating today lol.

Almost vacation time

Ok so here it is the Friday before we leave on our little vacation. I am so ready. The bags are packed and the only things left is to pack last min things such as meds and toothbrushes and stuff like that. Kris is all excited about going to the lego store on Monday. I'm just hopeing the drive is a good one. Tonight its about resting up so I can get up in the morning and double check everything oh what fun. On top of that Kris got his progress report today (didn't know it was time for one) He got a C in reading again (he is also a grade level behind most 2nd graders due to learning disabilities) he brought home a C in spelling I know he can do better than that he spells very good at home I think its because they can't read his writing since he hates writing. then an A- in Math. those are the only three subjects they give them letter grades in. I don't know I think its all a little screwy but that's just my opion and I try not to say too much cuz I would prob. go off on them about shit. Well I guess I better get going gonna lay down and watch some tv till I fall asleep.

Busy week

This week seems so busy. Today I had a meeting and had to transfer bath stuff to bottles for vacation. Tomorrow Kris has his case coordinator that comes to the house and then therapy an hour later plus my birthday oh what joy. Thurs. I need to make sure all the laundry is done up and start figuring out what all to take as far as clothes and get trash gathered up. Friday pack suitcase, give dog a bath, give kid a bath. Got to figure out how to keep the kid up most of the night so he'll be able to sleep Saturday evening in the truck and sleep in Saturday morning as we wont be able to leave till that evening due to my mom's work. So much to get done but I'm super excited. Kris is on countdown mode. Well I'm off to see why the dog is whinning then get my workout in before Kris gets home from school.

The Countdown

Ok so my son woke me up at 5 this morning to tell me he has one week and one day after today before he gets away from school for a week and he gets to go to the lego store. Wow at 5 am the last thing I want to hear is that I will get him for 9 straight days with no school time oh well just means summer is coming. Really haven't been up to too much other than working on getting things ready for vacation and going through toys while he's not home. I did manage to run a lil over 5 miles in under 30 mins. big improvement for me my goal for April is to run at least 6 miles in under 30 mins so we will see. Plus to lose about 10 lbs before May but I won't hold my breathe on that. Well got to get ready to pick my lil man up from school then come home for dinner and homework time OH JOY!!!!!

TGIF I think

So it's friday which meant pizza and movie night at home which is good to have a routine with my son. He rented a sponge bob movie couldn't tell you what it was about i guess after hearing so much of it on tv i have learned to zone out during the movie lol. I rented couples retreat was not very happy about it. The previews looked so much better. Oh well. Last weekend was a wild weekend. I went out at a DD for a guy friend of mine since he was home on leave. He left Tuesday and will be gone for 3 more months. It was nice seeing him and a few others. And of course made plans with my sort of ex and one of his friends Ian and ian's old lady for the 27th which is the second Sat. after my bday to go out for my bday which works for me since I will be leaving on the 20th for Vacation. I can't wait to get away for awhile and not have to stress about the house work or anything else. I've been so stressed lately i dont know which way is up or down. I feel like everyone expect more from me than what i can give. Just stupid shit. Tomorrow night I'm going out to see a movie with a guy named Tony this will be date number4 I think. He's a nice guy but he's not Tim! I cant wait till the 27th to go out with Tim and Ian and shannon I think it will be lots of fun. Hopefully Tim's brother Brandon will be going as my DD this time like he promised last weekend that way I am able to drink. It's been since Sept. since i've had any alochol which is good but there are times that I wish i could have a drink but oh well. I've been working out like crazy lately got to get back in shape before summer lol. Today I was able to run 7 miles which is pretty good and i realize fat people like me should not run. But man did it feel good till i got done and then my legs felt like Jell-O really not a good feeling. Oh well i guess I better get going that way i can get to bed and get up and get my workout in before getting ready for a date.