Roller Coaster

This week has been such an emotional rollar coaster worse than when "tom" is in town. I'm just glad this week is almost over and other than feeling yucky things have gotten so much better. I am so nervouse over this weekend due to it being my first festival and I feel like my family thinks I'm dumb for trying to do this. But I like being home and able to take my son to his appointments and well if I tried to get a job around here all I could get is something that pays minum wage and less than 30hrs a week and with having a son I'd need more than that to be able to support him and me. I also think I maybe starting to like a guy I shouldn't be liking. Not because he's a bad guy in fact he seems like a great guy but because he lives over 2,000 miles away from me. So the likely hood of me seeing him anytime soon is really really slim but I'm ok waiting and trying long distance to see what happens. Idk its complicated.