Just bummed

Así que sé que ha sido un rato desde que yo he anunciado un blog pero he habido mucho pasando y realmente no tiene indicio donde comenzar. Im perdiendo lentamente el peso que no es bueno pero tan rápidamente como querría. En julio yo fui al lado de mi padre reunión familiar que usted habla de sentirse impar. Sentía realmente como yo no perteneció como todo fui fue niño del amor de mi padre tan probablemente acostumbrado hace eso otra vez. En las últimas semanas yo he tenido varios hit de machos en mí y bonito mucho pide sexo. ¡Lo siento que yo no soy una MUJERZUELA! !!!!! Yo tan soy cansado de chavos está justo como pero usted no estuvo con él por qué mí. Quizá porque yo me puse quiero a o quizá porque el corazón pertenece al someoen aunque yo no sea supuesto a. ¡Uno de ellos sucede ser un chavo que he sabido para lo que se siente como jamás y él conoce a muchos los chavos que feché y siempre he sido esta manera hacia mí pero puedo parecer conseguir la insinuación NOOOOOOOO que soy hola si todo deseé fue sexo que podría tener ningún pinche tiempo yo deseé pero eso no es lo que Iwant! !!!!!! Yo realmente deseo realmente una oportunidad con el hombre que posee el corazón. es eso realmente preguntar demasiado. Adivino que soy justo fustrated con mucho material. Por lo menos yo todavía trabajo y Kris vuelve a la escuela pronto. Bien iré tan puedo conseguir algún sueño para el trabajo.

Been awhile

So today is the 2nd day of Aug. We have busy weeks coming up mainly just the first part of it. Tomorrow we have our boy scout meeting then the following Monday we go in for school registration they do not have the lists posted yet of what the kids will need go figure it's frankfort's schools. Kris will go back to school on the 19th and of course I will not be there on his first day because I can't afford to miss any days I am trying hard to get hired on full time this year but who knows. Not a lot going on other than that and always working and enjoying my weekends as much as I can. This past week we went and saw G-force 3-D it was pretty good we went one day right after work instead of waiting for the weekend so there weren't many people there helped Kris out ALOT! He doesn't go back to see his therapist till later in the month and won't see the Dr. till Oct. for his meds so that must mean they think he is doing better. From a year ago MUCH better from 2 years ago MUCH MUCH better it's just taking time. When he's tired or there's too much going on or a large crowd seems to be when he acts up the most so we are learning how to try to avoid most of those kinds of situations can't avoid them all the time but learning how to help him cope with it. I did get a new phone this weekend with a full keyboard still same number and still a virgin mobile but i like the phone although i think you have to be really smart to figure out some of the stuff on it. We got to looking at it and it works with T-coil which would be great for my mom because of the hearing aids we've never had a phone that will work with her hearing aids so she's thinking about going ahead and getting a second one plus she could learn to text on this one better than the other one since she now knows how to im. I'm working on trying to get her up to speed with all this newage stuff LOL. Well I need to get going so I can get a few things done before bed. Busy busy busy day tomorrow.

First week done!!!

So yea today is Friday so happy it is. I am sore in places I forgot could get sore lol. My first week of being back at work is finally done. Next friday will be better its called PAYDAY!!! Kris is very excited about that cuz I told him we could go to Monkey Joe's that night so he could play after I stop and pay a couple of bills. Not much going on right now. Wed. was his last day of school he will be going to a couple of special classes this summer nothing too long. I think he has one in June that will last 3 or 4days like 2 hrs each day the he has 2 in July that are for 2 weeks a total of 4 hours a day (2hrs each) He's looking forward to that. His teachers sent home papers for him to work on during summer plus mamaw is going to make him practice writing everyday (m-f) and he has to read at least one book a day to help him imporve. Since they changed his meds back and he got his glasses his reading is starting to improve. He's still a little behind but that is understandable. His writing however SUCK. I swear my son could be a doc. the way he writes. You can not read it at all lol. He hates writing he says it makes his hand hurt. Well hell I hate packing mints it makes my back, arms and hands hurt not count feet from standing on concrete for 9 hrs a day around no one that speaks english but yet i've been up every morning at 4 am for work. This morning I had to push myself but I think thats cuz I knew it was Friday.
He did start the whole boy scout thing this week. During summer they only have meetings every other week so thats nice. At least they are in the evening hours and it will give him a chance to be around other boys his age. He has 1 missing tooth right now and the one next to it is ready to come out plus one of the top front teeth is a little lose soon he's going to look a little silly if he looses all 4 of the very front teeth without the big ones comeing in lol. Well I think that's all i got for today. I need to head off to bn.com to see if they have any new Murder She Wrote books in so i can try to get one for mom since her bday is next month. Maybe I'll have more another week.

Being female sucks

Ok yes I hate PMS more than anything in the world. At this moment in time i think childbirth natural without drugs sounds like more fun than bleeding for what feels like forever. I am supposed to be hanging out the a couple of friends this weekend since im the DD what a wonderful job let me tell u NOT. I'd rather be the one drinking and let one of the boys stay sober but no whatever Im just a good friend since one of them is only home on leave for a week before heading off to go overseas the only reason we are really going out this weekend anyways. Which means I get to stay the night with the man of my dreams even though we are not together but like i really care. He's mine no other little bitch is gonna touch him cuz i'll beat her little face in and well he's already said no one better mess with me but yet he dont want a commitment so whatever. I really cant say we are together but yet we aint seein anyone else its kind of complicated but i wouldnt trade it for the world. I go back to work finally on Monday at 6:30am can't freakin wait the bad part is my son has his first Tiger cub scout metting that night at 6:30 so not only do i have to work and bust my ass for 9 hours then i get to turn around and climb 3 flights of stairs to be in the same room with a bunch of little brats lol oh well it will be good for him. They have a camping trip in July so mommy gets to buy a tent and learn how to set it up there better be some damn pictures to go with this tent otherwise it might not get put up lol. Now I get why people say i need to settle down and get married so the guy can go and do this stuff with Kris. Oh well if i can fix the vaccum cleaner on my own without the instructions surly i can read the instructions and figure out how to put the damn tent together we'll see that should be very interesting let me tell you. Hopefully when im trying mom wont be anywhere near with the cam cuz that would be wrong lol. Today really seems like my day to bitch. I love this guy more than i thought i could ever love any guy and things are good the way they are cuz we are both trying to make our lives good that way if we decide in the near future to settle down then we'll be ok and not having to struggle as hard as we are now and with Kris having adhd he's afraid to get too involved with me incase it doesnt work out he doesnt want to slow down the progress that Kris has done so far which is good that he is thinkin that way but i do wish i could see him more. My friend has started seeing someone recently now shes blowing me off for him and then the one night we are supposed to hang out just the two of us she calls to tell me im bring jeffy with me wtf of course im pmsing and trying to be calm so i said whatever but thats bull shit i dont want to see two people makeout all night when i already feel like crap when i cant even talk or see mine till this weekend because he's spending this week with Gabe (which i support 110%) because we dont know if Gabe will come back or not cuz he's on the front line so im a little worried about that cuz he's an amazing guy and a great friend and I know how close him and Tim are and if something were to happen i really dont know how tim would handle it. When Tim's brother went overseas back in Nov. he pushed me away cuz he was afraid of everything but Gabe has tried to help him see that pushing me away isn't going to help anything that im an amazing girl and he should see what he has in front of him before its too late and a bunch of other stuff im not sure if i believe it or not sometimes but oh well. I do hope Tim gets his head out of his ass soon that way he can see that im not here to hurt him that i support him in every way. Ok now that i've bitched for a little while im going to go lay down for a little bit my back hurts and I hate cramps. MEN SHOULD HAVE PERIODS NOT WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dunno

Yea today is Sat. joy joy Kris has 3 day weekend and we aint doin nada no money to really do anything. Took a walk today from my house to the TPA park it sounded like fun gave Kris something to do. WE took the dog no big deal she likes going for walks. We get all the way to the park then he complains my feet hurt the playground is too hot oh then the nice little stand opens that sells the drinks so it was "mommy i want" well mommy has no money hello big red truck. So he throws a fit and we head home the whole way home is bitchin its hot my feet hurt blah blah blah. Then we get home great or so I thought I plugged my fan in and it didnt want to work at first i wasnt happy. I'm really hoping today gets better if not im going to scream. Oh and to top things off rent a center knows we dont go to pay until afternoon after 3 and do they care no they want to try to call me at 10 fucking o'clock in the morning to tell me i need to pay hello i'm not late till after they close DUH! Ok i'm going to go lay down now and watch tv and get fat well ok not the fat part but u know. Later

Really do not understand the male population

U know i've tried to figure them out and they dont make any sense to me. All my guy friends keep saying guys are so much easier to understand than the female population I do not believe that. For example I have fallen for a guy who to me is wonderful except right now cuz god only knows what has crawled up his ass. We've known each other for 11 yrs and have been on and off for 3 1/2 yrs. I go to bed thinking about him. Things were going really good we spend about 3 weekends in a row together mainly cuz 2 of those i was the DD cuz his best friend was leaving for military. Then I made dinner and took him food on Wed 2 days before his bday gave him a movie, and a 6 pack of MGD plus the card. Then i sent him a text friday early early early morning to tell him happy bday and he said thnx since then I have not heard from him. I had sent a text on Sat. to see if he wanted to hang out sometime this week no reply. Wed. was better than i thought it would be. Normally he sits on one side of the room and i sit on the other side but this time we sat next to each other the whole night and then when it was nite time he actually carried me into the bedroom which was a first. I woke up the next morning with him still holding on to me and thats not like him so why the hell is he being a dick now? Everytime I think i'm getting closer to him he pushes me away like this and i dont know what to do. I dont really want a relationship right now i like what we have going on it is what it is i cant explain it. But i love the fun we have. I can actually be me and not have to worry about talking to someone and him getting mad. We made a promise that if either of us wanted to see someone we would tell the other person and we've been real good about keeping that i just want to know if hes acting this way cuz there is someone he wants i dont know im so tired of trying to figure him out.

IT'S ALL WHATEVER

So yes that's my new motto just because well i got it from my good friend Gabe who better come back to us all in one damn piece and alive. He just left on Monday he'll be gone for 20 months. I'm not sure what Tim is going to do with himself cuz that's his best friend I guess that just means i'll have to go over and see him more often (i really wont mind). Kris had his first eye appt today and well lets just say in 10 business days he will have his own glasses. He picked out his frames today they are blue go figure. I am going with my best friend (Alisha) tomorrow to see about CNA classes i'm tired of not working and not having any money then tomorrow night I'm going over to Tim's making him dinner and watching a movie his b-day is this friday and i wont be able to see him because of my mom schedual but that's ok i'm making up for it he gets dinner tomorrow and Thurs. from me. Plus i'll prob. get him some beer for his b-day with the money that I have saved up and earned. Other than that not a lot going on. I think things between him and i are finally starting to look official. I mean hell in the last 3 1/2 years he has only kissed one other girl. I'm the only one he's ever had sleeping in his bed and his best friend keeps calling me his old lady and he doesn't correct them so maybe i'm finally getting lucky. Well i'm out of here for now i got some things to get done real quick have a wonderful week.