Being female sucks

Ok yes I hate PMS more than anything in the world. At this moment in time i think childbirth natural without drugs sounds like more fun than bleeding for what feels like forever. I am supposed to be hanging out the a couple of friends this weekend since im the DD what a wonderful job let me tell u NOT. I'd rather be the one drinking and let one of the boys stay sober but no whatever Im just a good friend since one of them is only home on leave for a week before heading off to go overseas the only reason we are really going out this weekend anyways. Which means I get to stay the night with the man of my dreams even though we are not together but like i really care. He's mine no other little bitch is gonna touch him cuz i'll beat her little face in and well he's already said no one better mess with me but yet he dont want a commitment so whatever. I really cant say we are together but yet we aint seein anyone else its kind of complicated but i wouldnt trade it for the world. I go back to work finally on Monday at 6:30am can't freakin wait the bad part is my son has his first Tiger cub scout metting that night at 6:30 so not only do i have to work and bust my ass for 9 hours then i get to turn around and climb 3 flights of stairs to be in the same room with a bunch of little brats lol oh well it will be good for him. They have a camping trip in July so mommy gets to buy a tent and learn how to set it up there better be some damn pictures to go with this tent otherwise it might not get put up lol. Now I get why people say i need to settle down and get married so the guy can go and do this stuff with Kris. Oh well if i can fix the vaccum cleaner on my own without the instructions surly i can read the instructions and figure out how to put the damn tent together we'll see that should be very interesting let me tell you. Hopefully when im trying mom wont be anywhere near with the cam cuz that would be wrong lol. Today really seems like my day to bitch. I love this guy more than i thought i could ever love any guy and things are good the way they are cuz we are both trying to make our lives good that way if we decide in the near future to settle down then we'll be ok and not having to struggle as hard as we are now and with Kris having adhd he's afraid to get too involved with me incase it doesnt work out he doesnt want to slow down the progress that Kris has done so far which is good that he is thinkin that way but i do wish i could see him more. My friend has started seeing someone recently now shes blowing me off for him and then the one night we are supposed to hang out just the two of us she calls to tell me im bring jeffy with me wtf of course im pmsing and trying to be calm so i said whatever but thats bull shit i dont want to see two people makeout all night when i already feel like crap when i cant even talk or see mine till this weekend because he's spending this week with Gabe (which i support 110%) because we dont know if Gabe will come back or not cuz he's on the front line so im a little worried about that cuz he's an amazing guy and a great friend and I know how close him and Tim are and if something were to happen i really dont know how tim would handle it. When Tim's brother went overseas back in Nov. he pushed me away cuz he was afraid of everything but Gabe has tried to help him see that pushing me away isn't going to help anything that im an amazing girl and he should see what he has in front of him before its too late and a bunch of other stuff im not sure if i believe it or not sometimes but oh well. I do hope Tim gets his head out of his ass soon that way he can see that im not here to hurt him that i support him in every way. Ok now that i've bitched for a little while im going to go lay down for a little bit my back hurts and I hate cramps. MEN SHOULD HAVE PERIODS NOT WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!