TIME FOR A NEW CAR

OK SO HERE ARE PICTURES FROM THE RECENT WRECK. $13,000 OF DAMAGES AND ONE PIC OF MY NEW TRUCK SANTA CAME EARLY THIS YEAR I GUESS.

Men lie

SO I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE ALREADY FIGURED THIS ONE OUT GUYS LIE AND CHEAT AND ARE SCUM. WELL FUCK THAT SHIT I HOPE HE IS HAPPY BECAUSE I'M NOT THE KIND OF GIRL WHO IS GOING TO CRY OVER THAT SHIT HE MADE HIS CHOICE TO BAD HE WASN'T MAN ENOUGH TO TELL ME TO MY FACE INSTEAD I HAD TO CATCH HIM IN THE ACT WHICH PISSED ME OFF THE MOST BUT OH WELL FUCK IT. JUST GOES TO SHOW THAT I WILL NEVER FIND SOMEONE TRUE OR BE HAPPY OR EVEN GET MARRIED OH WELL THIS WILL MAKE EVERYONE ELSE HAPPY NOW.

DRAMA DRAMA DRAMA

I LOVE HOW PEOPLE THAT ARE OLDER THAN YOU ACT TEN TIMES YOUNGER THAN YOU. THIS HAS NOT BEEN A GOOD WEEK AT ALL. DUSTIN HAS BEEN SICK AND HIS EX IS CAUSING SOME PROBLEMS AND THEN HIS MOM STARTED IN LAST NIGHT. SHE TOLD HIM THAT SHE WOULDN'T HELP HIM OUT AT ALL AS LONG AS I WAS LIVING HERE WITH HIM BECAUSE I WASN'T JAMIE (WHICH IS ONE OF HIS EX'S THAT SHE LIKED) AND ITS JUST LIKE WHAT THE FUCK SO NOW ITS TIME FOR HIM TO MAKE THAT CALL ON WHAT THE FUCK HE REALLY WANTS BECAUSE I CAN'T TAKE IT SCREW THAT SHIT. BUT HOPEFULLY AFTER THIS WEEK IS OVER WE CAN GET BACK ON TRACK. WE ARE TALKING ABOUT MOVING AFTER BOTH BOYS FINISH THE SCHOOL YEAR WE ARE TALKING ABOUT TN BUT THATS JUST TALK RIGHT NOW. WE STILL NEED TO TALK ABOUT WEDDING PLANS AND ALL THAT SHIT BUT WE ARE TRYING TO HOLD OFF TILL HE GETS LAID OFF WHEN HE'LL HAVE MORE TIME TO SIT AND TALK TO ME CUZ BY TIME HE GETS HOME AND WE GET KIDS IN BED ITS LATE AND HE'S TIRED SO WE JUST RELAX AND WATCH A LITTLE TV THEN OFF TO BED WE GO AND THEN START THE DAY ALL OVER AGAIN. I HAVE STARTED LOOKING FOR A JOB BECAUSE THIS STAYING AT HOME STUFF IS DRIVING ME CRAZY I'M USE TO HAVING MY OWN MONEY AND BEING ABLE TO GET UP AND GO OUT OF THE HOUSE. I'M NOT HOUSEWIFE MATERIAL. WELL I THINK I WILL END THIS NOW BECAUSE I DO HAVE TO GET READY TO GO PICK UP MY SON FROM SCHOOL SO HOPE EVERYONE HAS A GOOD WEEK AND I'LL TRY TO POST WHEN I CAN.

OMG

SO YEA I KNOW I DONT GET ON HERE VERY OFTEN TO WRITE MAINLY BECAUSE I HAVEN'T HAD A LOT OF TIME WITH MOVING INTO DUSTIN'S AND ALL BUT TODAY IS MONDAY AFTER A VERY GOOD WEEKEND. HE TOOK ME TO TEXAS ROADHOUSE FRIDAY NIGHT FOR DINNER WITHOUT THE KIDS OK THAT SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME SOMETHING WAS UP CUZ WE NEVER GO HARDLY ANYWHERE WITHOUT AT LEAST THE TWO BOYS. BOY WAS I RIGHT. HE PROPOSED FRIDAY NIGHT THEN SAT. WE DROVE UP TO SEE G-MA AND G-PA SMITH THEN SUNDAY TOOK THE BOYS TO CHUCK E CHEESE. SO THE WEEKEND WAS A VERY FULL WEEKEND AND ONLY A VERY FEW PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT THE ENGAGMENT RIGHT NOW. I HAVEN'T HAD THE CHANCE TO TELL MANY PEOPLE WITH EVERYTHING ELSE GOING ON. WE ARE DECIDING IF WE ARE GOING TO PUT IT IN THE PAPER AROUND HERE OR NOT. NO DATES HAVE BEEN SET YET. I'M SURE WHEN HE GETS LAID OFF IN A FEW WEEKS WE'LL HAVE A LITTLE MORE TIME TO TALK THING OVER AND START WORKING ON THE PLANS. WELL I THINK THAT'S ALL FOR NOW SO I'LL TRY TO WRITE MORE AS SOON AS I CAN AGAIN I AM SORRY IF I DONT GET ON HERE AS MUCH AS I WISH I DID.

New Man

So good things come to those who wait!!!! I have met a wonderful man at work and we've been together for awhile now. I really believe he is the one for me. He will be 31 in Dec. and has three kids. He's a great guy and I am really happy with him. We are talking about moving in together and everything. He wants to get married we just aren't rushing things too much. We are talking about driving up to see the grandparents sometime this month. Things are going pretty good at work. However its getting closer to layoff time. So I am a little worried about losing this job. However Dustin wants to go work at Wabash and if he gets hired on after we are layed off then he wants me to stay at home with the kids and him work which is find with me I guess. Oh well.... I guess I'm going to jump off of here the boys just walked in from cleaning out my car. Now I know why we have kids to do the shit we don't want to lol Have a good week.

Urrrrrgggggg

I realize a lot of people put interesting things in their blogs but to be honest today I just dont give a damn. It has been one of those weeks. This past weekend was pretty good. I got to take the kid to see the monster trucks for the first time. He loved them and didn't complain about them being very loud prob. because it was outside at the fairgrounds. Then monday rolled around and I woke up thinking wow this is going to be a good day at work WRONG it was a horrible day. I came home so sore and with a big bruise on my arm that ended up swelling up over night but I got up and did the same shit all over again just like the rest of the week just like I will get up tomorrow morning and go to work. I'm so happy though that it is a short day. Its not just work that has be feeling BLAH. its the fact that everyone seems to want me to be with someone or settle down or whatever but everyone seems to have something to say about who it should be with. Everyone wants to hook me up with someone and that is kind of funny because I do have a friend that wants to set me up with this guy that we work with but yet she is all over him like she wants his nuts. Ok one if you want to set your friend up with someone don't flirt with them especially when you have a man cuz that makes you look like a whore. Don't try to set someone up if they don't want to be set up. There is a guy in my life in a fucked up way. i really couldn't tell you what is going on because I have no clue even. He bought the tickets to see the monster trucks this past weekend. He is a good guy but I dont know. I dont even know if i want to settle down with anyone or even be in a relationship right now with anyone. Well i know its been awhile since i've been on here but i am really tired so i'm keeping this short. Have a good weekend.

Things happen for a reason

OK I KNOW EVERYONE SAYS THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON AND YOU HAVE TO LET NATURE TAKE ITS COURSE. YES IN A WAY I UNDERSTAND THAT. HOWEVER WHEN IT COMES TO SOMEONE LOSING A CHILD I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY THEY WOULD BE BLESSED WITH ONE AND BE ABLE TO HOLD THE CHILD FOR 5 WEEKS BEFORE GOD TAKING THE CHILD BACK TO HEAVEN. I MEAN COME ON THOSE POOR PARENTS GO THROUGH HELL. MY BEST FRIEND JESSICA HAD A BABY BOY ON JULY 10TH AND TODAY WE LAYED HIS BODY IN THE GROUND. SHE WAS A TOTAL WRECK BUT THAT IS TO BE EXPECTED. THIS IS NOT HER FIRST CHILD IT IS HER THIRD BUT THE FIRST BOY. HE LAYED THERE IN THE FUNERAL HOME LOOKING LIKE A DOLL. HOW CAN SOMETHING THAT BEAUTIFUL AND SPECIAL ALREADY BE GONE. SO MANY OF US DID NOT EVEN KNOW SHE HAD HIM YET UNTIL WE GOT THE PHONE CALL OVER THE WEEKEND ABOUT THE DEATH. THEY HAVE NO CLUE HOW IT HAPPENED. THEY HAD FED HIM ON SAT. MORNING AT 6 THEN WENT BACK IN TO FED HIM AROUND 9 WHEN THEY LAID HIM BACK DOWN AFTER THE 6 AM FEEDING HE WAS FINE. CLOSE TO 9 THEY HAD NOT HEARD ANY NOISES SO THEY WENT TO CHECK ON HIM AND IT WAS ALREADY TOO LATE! WHY GIVE SOMEONE A CHILD ONLY TO TAKE THEM AWAY WHAT LESSON IS THERE TO BE LEARNED OTHER THAN WE ARE GUARNTEED TODAY NOR ARE WE PROMISED TOMORROW SO WE MUST LIVE TODAY LIKE THERE IS NO TOMORROW WHICH FOR SOME OF US IS A LOT HARDER TO DO BECAUSE WELL LETS FACE IT I LIKE TO PLAN THINGS. THIS HAS TAUGHT ME NOT TO TAKE THINGS FOR GRAUNTED NOT EVEN THE SMALL THINGS IN LIFE. RYAN AND I WENT TO THE FUNERAL TOGETHER ALONG WITH MY FRIEND JEN IT WAS A VERY SAD DAY THEN JEN AND I WENT TO WORK AFTER WORDS WHICH WAS KIND OF HARD. IT WAS NICE THOUGH BEING ABLE TO SEE SOME OF THE PEOPLE THAT I KNEW WHEN I WAS A LOT YOUNGER I JUST WISH IT WOULD HAVE BEEN FOR OTHER REASONS OTHER THAN THIS SAD CASE. WELL I NEED TO HEAD OFF TO BED SO I CAN GO TO WORK IN THE MORNING. REMEMBER LIVE TODAY LIKE THERE WILL BE NO TOMORROW!!!!!!

Finally Friday

WELL TODAY IS FRIDAY FINALLY!!!! NOT ONLY IS IT PAYDAY BUT IT IS ALSO A SHORT DAY AT WORK AND THE START OF A WEEKEND. THIS WEEK HAS GONE SO LONG MANLY BECAUSE I ENROLLED MY FIVE YEAR OLD IN FOR KINDERGARTEN AND HE HAS BEEN BUGGING ME WANTING TO KNOW IF ITS TIME TO START SCHOOL YET. HE IS SO EXCITED ABOUT GOING TO SCHOOL WHICH IS REALLY A GOOD THING I'M READY FOR HIM TO START SCHOOL. THERE'S A FEW PEOPLE AT WORK THAT SAY THEY ARE GOING TO CRY WHEN THEIR LITTLE ONE STARTS KINDERGARTEN BUT FORGET ALL THAT. I WAS READY LAST YEAR FOR HIM TO GO HOWEVER HE MISSED TEH CUT OFF DATE BECAUSE OF WHEN HIS B-DAY FALLS. OH WELL AT LEAST HE SHOULLD BE READY. ANYWAYS I AM OFF OF HERE TO GO SHOPING TO MAKE SURE I HAVE ALL THE SCHOOL SUPPLISE NO BARS THIS WEEKEND AS MY MOTHER HAS TO WORK MANY HOURS THIS WEEKEND OH WELL LATER EVERYONE

Where did the weekend go

SO TODAY IS SUNDAY. WHERE DID THE REST OF MY WEEKEND GO. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE GOT NOTHING DONE THAT I NEEDED TO GET DONE ONCE AGAIN. IT MUST HAVE BEEN ALL THOSE DRINKS FRIDAY NIGHT. OH WELL I DONT REGRET IT. I HAD A WONDERFUL TIME. WE DID SOME KAREOKE (SORRY ABOUT SPELLING) SHOT SOME POOL GOT TO BREAK IN THE BRAND NEW POOL STICK THAT LIGHTS UP LOL SPENT SOME TIME WITH A WONDERFUL GUY AND GOT TO FIND OUT WHERE WE STAND. NOT THE ANSWER I WAS REALLY WANTING BUT I'LL TAKE IT. ONE DAY AT A TIME I GUESS IS HOW WE ARE PLAYING THIS RELATIONSHIP OH WELL EVERYONE IN OUR GROUP OF FRIENDS KNOWS WE ARE TOGETHER SO I DONT REALLY CARE. YESTERDAY I THINK I SLEPT ALL DAY TILL EVENING HOURS THEN WENT OUT TO EAT WITH MY MOM AND MY LITTLE BOY THEN CAME HOME AND SLEPT SOME MORE. TODAY WE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE GOING TO KMART TO PAY ON HIS SCHOOL CLOTHES THEN OFF TO CHUCK E. CHEESE WE GO I KNOW SOUNDS LIKE A LOT OF FUN HUH LOL.... ITS ONLY ALMOST 11AM AND I HAVE YET TO GET OUT OF BED TO GET READY FOR THE DAY. I JUST WANT TO SLEEP ALL DAY AGAIN. WELL I'M OFF OF HERE SO I CAN TRY TO GET SOME STUFF DONE THEN TOMORROW ITS BACK TO WORK I GO OH WELL THE CHECK I GET FRIDAY WIL BE WORTH IT SOMEWHAT.

And the week begins

So this begins my first full week of my job let me telll you how fun it is NOT... its a job are they ever fun??? Oh well at least its a job right. Today seemed very long maybe its because I drank the weekend away lol go figure leave it to me to do something like that. However last week (the two days I did work) were pretty good. I put lids on the damn candy corn containers let me tell you how smart you have to be for that lol.... the work is easy so i'm not going to complain just not use to standing on my feet all day like that. Oh well it will get better I am sure. so friday night i went out with my amazing guy friend it was so much fun lol.... at least we were able to hang out and not feel pressured it was kind of a date i guess. I paid for his beer and he paid for pool then I walked him up to the door at the end of the night and got my kiss. However I did learn how short i was the poor guy had to bend over to hug me he's only 6 foot something lol... Also my mother wrecked my car friday morning on her way home from work but we got a rental truck till ours is fixed (i like it better than my car) its a 2007 ford f-150 its a smooth ride and great at the drive ins lol yes I checked that out oh well what no one knows wont hurt them. I am hoping however that my car wont cost too much to fix it. At least that's not how i was getting to work. My friend picks me up and we go together. Well i better get going so i can get some sleep before tomorrow i hope everyone has a good week. I know i will :) ;)

And the week begins

Job

Ok so I made it all safe and everything yesterday morning at 6 am in the morning. I know why they call it the red eye flight. I went and filled out an application at a staffing resource place, got an interview and went through orientation all in the same day. Today I have to go to Zachary's to pick up my badage and uniform just to report tomorrow morning at 6:30 in the morning. I will be taking a pay cut but I will get more hours at the same time so i guess it works out about that same who knows. Oh well the way i look at it I have a set schedual Mon-Thurs. i'll work 6:30-4 then Friday 6:30-1 and have my weekends off and I wont have to deal with working with a bunch of high school girls who can't seem to do their damn jobs. I loved my last job but the girls drove me nuts maybe because i'm not the type to go and spend $100 or more on a purse that you only use maybe for one season because after that its out of style screw all that shit. Well I need to go get ready to get stuff done today oh boy let me tell you lol... I"ll write more maybe this weekend if i'm not too tired

Monday again??

SO TODAY IS MONDAY ONCE AGAIN. THE WEEKEND SEEMED TO BE LONGER THAN EVER. I LEAVE CALI IN LIKE 7HRS BUT WONT GET TO IN TILL LIKE 6AM. KRIS IS HYPER AS USUAL AND I SPENT HALF THE DAY TRYING TO MAKE SURE I CAN GET EVERYTHING TO FIT IN MY SUITECASES NEEDLESS TO SAY I HAD TO SIT ON ONE TO GET IT TO SHUT! I GUESS THAT MEANS I HAVE BOUGHT TOO MANY THINGS WHILE BEING HERE BUT MY BFF INTRODUCED ME TO THIS REALLY COOL STORE CALLED IKEA.... I LOVE IT!!!!!! THE CLOSEST ONE BACK HOME IS IN IL SO I MIGHT GO FOR A WEEKEND TRIP NEXT SUMMER JUST TO CHECK IT OUT AND STUFF. IN A WAY I'M READY TO GO BACK HOME CUZ I NEED TO GET SOME THINGS TAKEN CARE OF AND CONFRONT SOMEONE MAYBE IT WILL ALL WORK OUT. WELL I'M OUT OF HERE FOR NOW I'M NOT SURE IF I'LL HAVE TIME THIS WEEK TO GET ON AGAIN BUT I WILL TRY. EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT WEEK.

Guys blow

Ok so I dont know how often i'll be on here but oh well. This is my last week here in Cali. then I am heading back home oh boy let me tell you lol. Anyone who knows where home is understands lol. So the main reason i'm looking forward to going home is so that i can talk to someone so i know where i need to go from here. I fell for a guy in the group i hang out with and things have been great when its just the two of us. He's so passionate its unbelievable. I would go into details however that wouldn't be right since i know my brothers will probably read it. however with this guy one of the guys in the group said it would never workout cuz frinds can't date friends so we've never talked about it. We've left things the way they are. I am tired of my other friend being a jackass cuz well he's dating a girl he became friends with first which is not cool but hey to each is there own right. I am having a hard time trying to think of how to tell this other guy how i feel. when i am around him i get weak in the knees. Its different. like he has seen me on my good days and my bad days. We've beent hrough hell together but yet we are still there for each other. I am a little worried that if i tell him how is that going to change things. are we still going to be able to remain as close as we are now? I would trust him with my life if it came down to it. He has never lied to me or hurt me which is really nice. So many things to think about between now and the day i go back home. I am just hoping i'll be able to sleep on the plane so i can be wide awake when i land. Well that is all for now if you have any advice just leave me a comment thanks.

Me so far

SO I SIT HERE WITH MY GOOD FRIEND AND I READ BOTH OF MY BROTHERS BLOGS AND SAY WHAT THE HELL MIGHT AS WELL RIGHT. I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO WITH MY DAYS LOL. OK I COULD THINK OF A FEW THINGS I COULD DO BUT OH WELL THIS WILL KEEP ME OUT OF TROUBLE THE MOST LOL. I AM A 24 YEAR OLD SINGLE MOTHER OF MY WONDERFUL 5 YEAR OLD SON WHO TURNS 6 AND STARTS KINDERGARTEN THIS YEAR :( SO SAD. ANYWAYS MY LIFE IS PRETTY GOOD FOR THE MOST PART. I GREW UP IN A SMALL TOWN WITH MANY GUY FRIENDS THAT I AM STILL CLOSE TO AND THERE IS ONE THAT I HAVE FELL FOR BUT SHHHH NO ONE KNOWS ABOUT THAT. WELL THAT IS ALL FOR NOW I WILL POST MORE A LITTLE LATER JUST GETTIN THIS START.